Depression and Feeling Dead Inside Bipolar Burble Blog. Depression and Feeling Dead Inside. Depression is many things to many people. The common perception of depression is that youre just really sad all the time, and while this is true for many who suffer depression, this is not a universal norm. Some people dont feel sad, per se, they feel nothing they feel dead inside. The subscription details associated with this account need to be updated. Please update your billing details here to continue enjoying your subscription. The Battle For Normality Ebook LibrarySo, Whats it Like to Feel Dead Inside Its hard to say what its like to feel dead inside. How to declutter your home in the easiest possible way. The official site of Declutter Fast, bestselling book and program by Mimi Tanner. Words may be combined into phrases. Some phrases become popular over the years and are applied to situations other than originally intended. These phrases take on a. Architects, visual artists, web designers and programmers based in Rotterdam, the Netherlands. Moving On From Disappointment Are you focused on the person, or on the bigger picture of your life February 27, 2012 By NATALIE Reading Time 5 Minutes. The Battle For Normality Ebook ReaderTo me, its sort of like someone removed the contents of my chest and left a gaping void where there is nothing left but a painful, sucking black hole. It feels like all the places that are supposed to do something my heart and my soul have been removed. And this removal has left open, bleeding gashes. Wounds that tear and itch and bleed. And just knowing that my heart and soul have been removed is breathtakingly painful. Feeling their absence is like feeling the absence of oxygen from the lungs. It puts one into a panicked and near death state. And the thing about having your insides removed is that you really do feel the necrosis setting in in the surrounding tissue. It feels like youre a rotting corpse. It feels like youre the walking dead. It feels like your humanity was removed along with your insides. Then put me in front of a glorious scene. Put me in front of a glorious sunset. Set me in front of young love. Position me to gaze upon kittens playing. And all the sucking nothingness ensures an absolute lack of feeling. Port Royale 3 Trainer Softpedia more. Kittens playing make me feel the same as staring at a wall of grey. And experiencing this, knowing how much Im missing, knowing what I should feel about kittens, knowing what I should feel about a sunset, knowing what I should feel about young love, almost makes me stop breathing altogether. Youd Think Feeling Nothing Wouldnt Kill You Youd Be Wrong. Because somehow in all this nothingness, there exists pain. I cant explain why pain exists when nothing else does I only know that is the case. I only know that feeling a gaping void inside my chest is one of the most painful states of being that I know. And I know that escaping that feeling and the associated pain is bloody high on my to do list. Of course escape also means many things to many people, and its understandable when escape means death, means suicide if you think there is no other means available. Feeling the Pain of Feeling Nothing Inside. Luckily, other means are available. I would consider the absence of pleasure anhedonia a severe sign of depression and, in that case, I really dont know what option you have other than working with a psychiatrist in search of a successful treatment. Its not a minor thing and your less aggressive treatments strike me as being unworkable. But thats your call. Or, more specifically, my call. And I would say the important thing is treating it and knowing that treatment is available and does work. No one has to live with their insides scraped out. Ive seen this before, Ive lived through it, and Ive seen it go away. I can say, without doubt, that it is possible. And hopefully, that knowledge is enough to keep going. About Natasha Tracy. Natasha Tracy is an award winning writer, speaker and consultant from the Pacific Northwest. She has been living with bipolar disorder for 1. Natashas New Book. Find more of Natashas work in her new book Lost Marbles Insights into My Life with Depression Bipolar. Media inquiries can be emailed here. How Long Can Humans Stay Awake The easy experimental answer to this question is 2. In 1. 96. 5, Randy Gardner, a 1. Several other normal research subjects have remained awake for eight to 1. None of these individuals experienced serious medical, neurological, physiological or psychiatric problems. On the other hand, all of them showed progressive and significant deficits in concentration, motivation, perception and other higher mental processes as the duration of sleep deprivation increased. Nevertheless, all experimental subjects recovered to relative normality within one or two nights of recovery sleep. Other anecdotal reports describe soldiers staying awake for four days in battle, or unmedicated patients with mania going without sleep for three to four days. The more difficult answer to this question revolves around the definition of awake. As mentioned above, prolonged sleep deprivation in normal subjects induces altered states of consciousness often described as microsleep, numerous brief episodes of overwhelming sleep, and loss of cognitive and motor functions. We all know about the dangerous, drowsy driver, and we have heard about sleep deprived British pilots who crashed their planes having fallen asleep while flying home from the war zone during World War II. Randy Gardner was awake but basically cognitively dysfunctional at the end of his ordeal. In the case of rats, however, continuous sleep deprivation for about two weeks or more inevitably caused death in experiments conducted in Allan Rechtschaffens sleep laboratory at the University of Chicago. Two animals lived on a rotating disc over a pool of water, separated by a fixed wall. Brainwaves were recorded continuously into a computer program that almost instantaneously recognized the onset of sleep. When the experimental rat fell asleep, the disc was rotated to keep it awake by bumping it against the wall and threatening to push the animal into the water. Control rats could sleep when the experimental rat was awake but were moved equally whenever the experimental rat started to sleep. The cause of death was not proven but was associated with whole body hypermetabolism. In certain rare human medical disorders, the question of how long people can remain awake raises other surprising answers, and more questions. Morvans fibrillary chorea or Morvans syndrome is characterized by muscle twitching, pain, excessive sweating, weight loss, periodic hallucinations, and severe loss of sleep agrypnia. Michel Jouvet and his colleagues in Lyon, France, studied a 2. During that time he did not feel sleepy or tired and did not show any disorders of mood, memory, or anxiety. Nevertheless, nearly every night between 9 0. In recent investigations, Morvans Syndrome has been attributed to serum antibodies directed against specific potassium K channels in cell and nerve membranes. Another rare disorder, Fatal Familial Insomnia FFI, is an autosomal dominate disease that is invariably fatal after about six to 3. FFI is probably misnamed because death results from multiple organ failure rather than sleep deprivation. The pathological processes include degeneration of the thalamus and other brain areas, over activity of the sympathetic nervous system, hypertension, fever, tremors, stupor, weight loss, and disruption of the bodys endocrine systems. FFI belongs to a class of infectious prion diseases that include Mad Cow Disease. To return to the original question, How long can humans stay awake the ultimate answer remains unclear. Despite the rat studies in Chicago, I am unaware of any reports that sleep deprivation per se has killed any human excluding accidents and so forth. Indeed, the U. S. Department of Defense has offered research funding for the goal of sustaining a fully awake, fully functional 2. Adobe Premiere Capture From Vhs. Future warriors will face intense, around the clock fighting for weeks at a time. Will bioengineering eventually produce genetically cloned soldiers and citizens with a variant of Morvans syndrome who need no sleep but remain effective and happy I hope not. A good nights sleep is one of lifes blessings. As Coleridge wrote years ago, Oh sleep It is a gentle thing, beloved from pole to pole, and Wilse Webb, a prominent sleep researcher, more recently called sleep the gentle tyrant It can be delayed but not defeated.